|It's a Boxing match right now!|
|Get it out of me now!!!|
|Love among my "Fruit Basket"|
So what is the date today? Every Friday I have an MRI with Contrast. Today we found out the tumors are growing. Let's just say I refer to my body as a "Fruit Basket"! Since my last post on the 25th of January a lot has come to light. Tumors are growing. Good days and bad days, happy days and sad days. I am pissed off, but more so to events of my past. I reflect on the fabulous men in my past that have been the loves of my life, names will be withheld but you know who you are: Blue Angel, UPS, Argentina, Federal Air Marshall and United Airlines. Your private message to me Blue Angel will never be forgotten as I have and always will love you and FAMS, we had a great working relationship and I will love you forever! I will never forget Phantom of the Opera, the Venetian and Please Remove your shoes.
I have no worries about my Fluffy Puppy Eddie as he will have a great home with Caliee and Mitzy May as told in my Will (pinned to my Kitchen calendar). The truth is that when you go through something like this so traumatic you realize who your real friends are. Peeps that I haven't seen since high school and peeps that I haven't had lunch with in years all of a sudden call me, email me and want to help me in anyway they can. I have always been a giver, never thinking of myself and so I apologize when you all offer me your life to help me and I hesitate. I will never forget the past relationship who always reminded me that "You know where you can find sympathy, between shit and syphilis in the dictionary"! Those words were hateful and that is the reason why I hesitate to ask anyone for help.
The truth is I know who my real true friends and family are when going through this fruity tootie time. I have never been so close to my older sister and older brother. You two are the best! My peeps, well I thank you for being there for me. The final test will be after and during surgery.
So I guess in a nutshell I am having a pretty hard depressed day. The sun was out for awhile and Eddie and I hiked miles of trails thanks to BLM and Mcconnell Foundation. Tomorrow is another day.
To Be Continued...